Sure-Prize

The prize is not always what we want

But it is always what we are given

Avoidance

Avoidance is a derivative of fear...

Avoidance...broken down...

A Void...hollow empty, vacant

Dance...Steps, movement or gestures

The end result...Hollow steps, empty movement or vacant gestures

the mere act of avoidance may seem like a protective barrier from disappointment

but the mere act of avoidance is disappointment

if we avoid, we are either afraid to fail, or don't care enough to try

Swollen

I was incompetent, inept, vacuous,

Verbally vacant but internally absorbed by that which assaulted me

A reality that was indescribable, yet entirely familiar

A nightmare, where you want to scream, but are unable to vocalize a single syllable...

Unable to speak, a sensation reserved for the dormant and incoherent dreamer

Frozen with fear...

 

but I have lived that horrifying and crippling condition

 

A shock and sadness so deep, so unexpected and so unwanted,

I never thought life was capable of a darkness so deep and completely black,

that I could not see anything

but the sorrow that swelled and swallowed my words...